Hi all —
I'm wondering if I can seek some advice. I recently had a phone interview for a job I wanted very much. We set up a time for the interview, but the search committee chair canceled it, suggesting an alternative in a few days. This was not good for me and I said this as clearly as I could, but the chair "strongly preferred" that we go ahead since they needed to make decisions.
The reason the rescheduling was not good for me was not a small thing … I was flying home to visit a dying relative and I ended up interviewing from a parked car in the hospital parking lot. I did not tell this to the chair, however, because I did not want to overshare, was not due back home for another week, and because the committee's desire to interview immediately had been so clearly conveyed to me.
Needless to say, I absolutely blew the interview. It was a tough interview … not the standard tell-me-about-your-research; they went through my vita and asked a lot of pointed questions. I was unprepared for the scrutiny. I have interviewed a lot and am typically very confident about my research and credentials. I thought I would be able to pull it off, but I was wrong. It was absolutely the worst interview I can remember having.
I am now deeply upset about the whole thing. I have not heard anything from the chair, nor have I seen any updates on the wiki. I desperately want to e-mail the chair of the search committee and offer a brief explanation and ask to "re-interview."
Will that make me look like a freak? Do I need to "let it go?" Others tell me that if this school was so insistent on my interviewing immediately and were so pointed in their questioning that I likely don't want to work there. But I wish I'd been completely transparent about what was happening. I could handle them not inviting me for an on-campus if I had done my best, but knowing I could do so much better has been especially painful.