I am super depressed and at a strange point in my career. I accepted a tenure track position earlier this year with a high teaching load (3/3). As I get closer and closer to summer and stating at this place I am becoming more and more fearful of the thought of teaching 3 classes per semester. Yes, I knew this while I was interviewing and accepting but the alternative of having no other jobs and a useless current postdoc made this position look attractive.
But now I am feeling like I am imprisoning myself as I am more passionate about research than teaching but clearly lack the number and quality of pubs in order to get a more balanced teaching/research load in the first place. I keep reading through these forums about people being stuck at teaching schools and not being able to get out for years.
A thought came into my mind. Is it possible to go from a tenure track teaching job to a postdoctoral position in hopes of getting a 2/2 teaching and research oriented job? Or is that unheard of? If I am truly interested in developing my research program further can I convince anyone to take me as a postdoc even though I will hold a tenure track position?
For those that try to move on up from high teaching positions, when do you make the move? Is it appropriate to do so after one year or should one stay a couple of years before moving? I am feeling like I will get stuck at this place with high teaching expectations, minimal research resources, research inactive colleagues, and no potential collaborative opportunities. It seems to me that folks in research schools often don't have any interest in collaborating with faculty within teaching schools as it is no benefit to them, so there is another door closed.
I am so confused and conflicted = (